When You Wish Upon A Star.....

With Christmas being this I realized I needed a little bit of a happier posts than my lasts I thought I would share with you a few wishes on my wishiest of wishlists....Hopefully Brian will read this.....

1. These might be one of the most fabulous boots I have ever seen in my life, but I might have to give my own life for them. Anthropologie you pricey people you.....

2. Breakfast At Tiffany's, I don't think there needs to be an explanation

3. This jacket would keep me warm on those cold wintery days in Utah, and well I would look fabulous in it.

4. I asked Santa for a puppy, and he told me I had been naughty all year, so he wouldn't bring me one. I really havn't been naughty...I promise.

5. And a couple of these please!!!!! Do you think these babies will be comfortable in his bag coming down the chimney? I think they will be!

Black Friday why are you so ugly looking?

I work in retail, whoopee. So I was one of the lovely ladies that said "did you get everything you needed?" or "thanks for coming in see you later", yep that was me, the red head behind the counter all day. Taking your money, wrapping, bagging, smiling all day....

At the end of the day my thoughts went to other scenerios that I wish I could of said today, for example....

1. No I do not like working here, please stop asking me

2. No I don't want to see you come back in again, in fact I didn't want to see you at all today

3. Yes that is our last one on the wall, and NO I do not want to get it down for you, in fact I'd rather cut my legs off

4. I don't care if you are decorating your mantel, don't ask me to come over and do it for you, figure it out yourself

5. YES! I did put your discount in! and YES I am going to stamp your rewards card! and YES I want to reach across the counter and slap your silly little face off

6. To the lady who went into the office and took the stocking, I wanted to reach my short arm across the counter and punch you in the face. Then I wanted to tell you that we do not take things that don't belong to us, especially if it is a room where your not aloud. So don't ever do that again.

Thank you for shopping with us and have a great day.

P.S. To the people who tried knocking on the door to let them in after closing, GO AWAY! There is reason why we locked the doors.

Brian told me I am not being very nice, and way to be in the Christmas Spirit, BAH HUMBUG!

Really I wish I had some babies so I could be one of the ladies standing in line at 4 a.m., asking to get things down for them, taking stockings, and making sure I got my discount and my rewards punched....But alas, that is not my fate today, maybe next year, maybe next year. To all the mom's I am JEALOUS, that right you heard it JEALOUS! Someone give me some babies!

Happy Black Friday!

Rah, Rah, Rah.....

This is late but we went to the BYU game on Saturday and it was a lot of fun. Our friends Miles and Kris came, who are visiting from England, and we had a spectacular time. We had great seats, North endzone 2nd row right next to the cannon. Which is a lot louder when you are sitting right next to it. Good thing BYU won because it was cold! Go Cougars!

Come Together........

At the beginning of October my side of the family decided it was time to take some family pictures. The last one was over 15 years ago. Since then there have been 7 new people added to the family, and well it was 15 years ago. What slackers we are. They turned out FANTASTIC, and we were able to get a great photographer, who is one of our good friends from Fresno. Michelle Tandy is a great photographer and very affordable. We had so much fun with her. Visit her blog michelletandyphotography.blogspot.com. You will fall in love with her pictures! Here are a few, the background is my parents backyard, beautiful in my opinion, just gorgeous.

Yes...I am Alive

I know, what is an intervention worth, if it doesn't help? I've been gone...I know, have you missed me? I've missed myself if that helps? There comes a time in everyones life where they have to sit back and look from the outside in and revamp what is going on in their lives. They have to dissappear for a little bit maybe even hide out, and then one day in all the confusion and darkness the light shines through a little brighter and everything is well again. I'm back, and am feeling like a shining beackon of hope. In fact in honor of my shinyness, were going to throw a party, a bloging party! Sleep with one eye open your not going to want to miss it!

Sweet Little Dresses

For my niece Bella's 7th Birthday I had decided to make her some sweet little dresses that I had seen on dana-made-it and she has the easiest tutorial to follow. They were perfect for her to wear to school, and one of the easiest things I have ever made. I had to make a few changes to make them long enough for her, but I was still able to follow it closely. I made some bows to match, but of course forgot to take pictures of them. Word of advice, get the biggest mens shirts you can find, the small ones are a waste of time. I found that out the hard way.

My Love Language Is Gifts

I know that comes as a big shocker to all of you that know me, but I love presents! I love to receive them, but mostly I love to give them. When I saw on My Mama Made It that she was doing a gift exchange I had to join in on the fun. We were all paired up, and sent our packages of sewing goodies to each other, I was luckily paired with Paula who gave me the most fantastic gifts! When I received my package I was so elated, and all of her goodies made my very hectic day a lot better.

She knew me all to well with her colors and fabrics, even the details of butterflies, made me smile until my face hurt.

Her packaging was exsquistic and her attention to detail was something out of a magazine

I am so excited Paula! Thank you so very much!

From the bottom of my heart

I cannot express the gratitude for all of the kind comments that you have all left me. I have never felt so loved by friends before, and I wanted to let all of you know how much it means to me. Thank you for all of your kind encouraging words, especially you Erin for your email, I will cherish what you said always. I know I have not posted in a while, some things have come up and I needed some time to myself. A break of sorts, to collect my thoughts, and emotions, and lean on the lord for support. How happy I was today to look through all of your blogs and find that you are all thriving and doing well. Thank you again for your friendship.

Now on to bigger and better things in life........

Baby Please Come!

While sitting here for the last 10 minutes staring at the screen tyring to come up with some clever and not so serious way to tell my about my day. So here it goes.......

Today is the day that we start our fertility drugs.......

I have never been so excited, emotional, scared, nervous, anxious, and hopeful all at the same time. About 3 years ago as we decided to start our family, I don't remember feeling the way I do today. Although we were wanting to get the same out come I wasn't thinking about the emotional part of being a mother, but more of fitting in with everyone else around me at BYU. I ws 21 and still very young, and wasn't really thinking long term, but more in the moment. As the first 6 months went by, and the a year, and then a year in a half went by with no baby, and no understanding of why, I found myself hating everyone, especially myself for not being able to do the one thing I am programmed to do.Having a baby. As time went on, I found myself starting to heal from the shame and hurt that I felt from not being able to do this "simple" task that I thought was an easy thing to do. Then we found some answers, natural answers, that seemed so simple to fix, and I felt relieved. So we tried again, and again, and again, with no results. I was 24 now, and felt like my plan of having my children before my thirties was being ruined, and felt myself getting angry again, but quickly reminded myself that "time heals all wounds", and I felt myself not feeling overwhelmed as much anymore, and felt my burdened being lifted.

At last I was referred to a fertility doctor, who ran some simple blood tests, and found that my body was not ovulating. My progesterone levels are suppossed to be between 10-15, and mine tested at .3. My doctor quickly said that it was an easy fix and called me in a perscription for Clomid. I was a little caught off guard by his confidence, and quickness of telling me in the next 3 months I should be pregnant. "Pregnant" was almost a foreign word to me know. But I trusted him, and with prayer and fasting we both felt that this was the way to get our baby,or babies as we are wishing and hoping for.

So today is the day we start, and I feel confident that it will work, but scared at the same time. But then elated that this is the time I will actually be getting pregnant. This is a for sure thing for us now, and I couldn't feel more grateful to my Heavenly Father for his strength and love that he has showed me in these past three years. I am a stronger person than I was three years ago, and feel more prepared to be a mother. I am also so grateful for all my friends and family who have supported us as well. You will never know how much strength you gave to us all of this time.

So baby please come to us, we have waited so long, and know that you are waiting just as much as we are. I am already in love with you, and know this is our time to be together. PLEASE get here as quickly as you can. We love you and can't wait to have you in our family.

Wow that was a little personal............and long

They Say It's Your Birthday!

Today is the day the love of my life was born. Oh, how I am so grateful he was! I would not be the person I am with out him. He is my other half, my best friend, my confident, and my true love. In honor of his 28th birthday (I have liked to remind him he is only 2 years from being 30) I wanted to list 28 things I love about him......

1. He is my best friend
2. He makes me laugh
3. He still loves me even though I am crazy
4. He is REALLY good looking
5. He buys me gorgeous boots on his birthday, I know he is the best!
6. He is caring
7. He goes and gets pedicures with me. Man pedicures of course
8. He is really smart, sometimes I have to tell him "I have no idea what you are talking about"
9. He is a hard worker
10. He is a nerd
11. He loves Star Wars
12. He loves Volkswagons
13. He is a hippie
14. He upholds his priesthood duties
15. He is always helping people
16. He helps me be a better person
17. He treats his mom, my mom, and myself with the upmost respect
18. He can figure anything out just by reading about it
19. He can't wait to be a dad
20. He is such a good friend
21. He loves the gospel
22. He is thoughtful
23. He is apologetic
24. He watches girlie movies with me and doesn't complain
25. He is young at heart
26. He knows how to have a good time
27. He is a good kisser, that's right I said it!
28. He will go shopping with me for hours, and is supportive, caring, and doesn't complain about it


Happy Birthday Lovie!

Tomorrow....

This handsome man's birthday is tomorrow. Yikes!

So.much.to.do.

p.s. could someone tell me how to make my pictures extra big?

Blogging......Intervention

So as all or you know, or all two of you that probably read this blog, have noticed it has been over a month since I have updated our blog. Yikes! Well the time has come for a blogging intervention.......I know interventions usually include other members of your family, suprising you when you get home and say, "we love you so much and just want you to be happy and want you to get your life back to normal, and we think this is the best thing for you right now." Then you storm out of the house running down the street, your purse still clutched in your hand )because there was no time to put your things down when you got home becasue you were bombarded right when you walked in the door), saying, "is this really happening, or am i on Candid Camera?" then you cry, yell, and finally decide to go to rehab, just to please your family.

Alas....none of that has happened to me, although I wonder how I really would react if my family did plan an intervention...but that is another story for another time.......

No my friends, it is time to become a serious blogger! No more stalking, and not posting myself. But it is a lot easier to look at other people's perfect blogs, and not do my own. Why is it that we become intimidated by other people's blogging ablities, when all this really is, is journaling in our own element. Why is it that we become self concious, and think no one cares about our boring lifes. Yet why do I still get complaints from friends that want me to update, and want to find out what I am doing. I guess people like me, what can I say, I think I am pretty funny...but really am I?

Enough rambling, I am going to blog. I am going let my creative juices flow, and let myself fly, "with the wind beneath my wings", thanks Bette for the advice.

So if you see my blog in total and utter caos, you will know why. I am having an intervention.....a blogging intervention. Are you excited? darn tootin you better be excited, or maybe you should be slightly afraid...but "bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow" there will be blogging!

....and now I will get off the stage....

Has it been 4 years already?

4 years ago today, I walked out of the temple doors sealed for time and all eternity to this handsome man......

and were thinking we could never love each other more than that day.......

now 4 years later..........

I couldn't imagine my life without my best friend, and love him more than I thought I ever could.....

Happy Anniversary Lovie!

Happy Fathers Day!

Yes I know I am a day late, but better late than never.......

I just had to say Happy Fathers Day to my Dad. He is an amazing man, and is just simply the best. He is so thoughtful, caring, generous, lovingg, understanding, and is so easy to come to for advice. I couldn't have ask for a better person to raise me. I am so grateful for him, and all the hard work and effort he puts into being the Father of our family. I just love him so much, and couldn't ask for a better person in my life.

We're Off!

We're off tomorrow.......

to a short visit up to Boise Idaho for this little man's blessing......

and a short but well over due visit with these fabulous people, plus or minus a few.....

and then back again to Utah beating the worker drum, and saying yes to the "Man"......

Can't wait to see everyone!

Zumba, Zumba!

This morning I went to my first Zumba class. It was AMAZING to say the least. The music was hoppin, the instructor was letting us shake our grove thang, and I burnied 1000 calories in an hour. I think it was proabably the best work out I have ever had, and I don't think I have sweated that much ever. Good thing I put on extra deoderant before I went, or no one would have wanted to stand by me. Zumba is a cardio aerobic exercise that is all latin based. The creator is from Columbia, and over the last 10 years has put together this cardio exercise that is latin dancing. As I was huffing and puffing, and thinking my legs were on fire, I thought to myself"no wonder those latin girls have rocking bods, they dance like this all the time." After talking to my instructor, who had a phenominal body, she said she had never done dancing before, and she had 6 kids. I almost fell over when she told me that. She could have fooled me! She said she started doing Zumba, and like it so much that she became an instructor. She was so good, and really gave me a great work out. I am hooked! So I signed up for my monthly classes of 3 times a week, bought a tank top that says Zumba across it, and am ready start latin dancing.

Can you say Excited?!

Finished my last final today at 12:45. Yes you can say I am ECSTATIC to be done with this semester. Success! Now if I had only been this successful a couple of years ago...hmmm.....and if the weather would actually stay above 60, you could say that would make me a happy girl.

Big Boy Max

This is a week late, but John and Bethany had there sweet little baby boy Maxwell John Adair last friday. He took a little bit of time to come here. 16 hours actually, and weighed 8 lbs 2 oz, 21 inches long, and a BIG head. We don't hold that against him though. We still think he is pretty precious. Welcome Baby Max.

Happy Birthday Mom B!

This is a little shout out to my Mom B. It is her birthday today, and no I do not know how old she is, but I think she looks pretty good. Happy Birthday Mom B. We love you!

Family Pictures

We were able to finally all get togetherand take family pictures! It was SO windy that day, so it made for an interesting photo shoot. We had a blast though! I think the pictures turned out pretty good, and we were able to get individual family shots, which we all enjoyed. We took pictures in downtown provo, and the tabernacle, and on Center street. Everyone around us thought we were taking engagement pictures, becasue that;s not unusual, so we played played along with it. It was quite fun to think back when we actually did take our engagements, and realize what babies we were. It was a success! No fighting, no tears....we had a blast!

Bethany's Baby Shower

Back in March I was able with the help from my great family to throw a baby shower for my-sis-in-laws Bethany a baby shower. It was the first one I have ever thrown for anyone, and I had a blast. I love parties, and so I thought what a great time to have one. I think I could throw a party everyday for someone, I just loved doing it. We did the color scheme of brown, blue, and a little green. The food was deliciouso, and my moter in law helped me make a FABULOUS diaper cake. Kricket made the best cupcakes I think I have ever had in my life! They were filled with raspberry cream, with cream cheese frosting. All I can say is OH MY GOSH, they were good! Of course we had a chocolate fountain. What party is a party without chocolate. All in all is was a great time with family and friends, and I loved having the opportunity to do it! Here are some fun pictures from the party.

Bethany (the star of the show)

The FABULOUS cupcakes....I still think about them

Sew, Sew, Sew!

I have been a busy little sewing bee as of lately, and I have just been loving it. When my grandma past away, I was given her sewing machine. It is from the 70's, and it is still a well oiled machine my friends. She took such good care of it, so it still runs like it was brand new. I love sewing with it! Everything about it reminds me of her. It even still smells like her. I don't even use my other sewing machine that I already have, because I love the one I got from her so much. My first project on it, was this baby blanket that I made for my neighbor for her new baby boy Michael. The back side is all minky, and I wanted to roll all around in it, but let's be real....I am a little to big for a recieving blanket.

He Really Does Know

So this past weekend was General Conference. I always look forward to it every 6 months, to be uplifted, enlighted, and just feel good about what I am doing as a member, and to reflect back on what I can do better at. I usually try to think of something that I have a question to, or is troubling me, and know that there will be a talk given to answer all my questions. This time was different for me, I didn't really have anything pressing that I could think about that I needed answers to. I was able to watch all 4 sessions of conference, which is rare for me, and each talk was very uplifting and but nothing really stood out to me, until sweet Elder Holland got up to speak in the last session, and his words really were meant for me right now. He talked about the atonement, and what Christ did for us specifically so that we would not feel alone. He talked about how on the cross, Jesus asked to have "the bitter cup taken from him", but Heavenly Father had to leave him so he would suffer all of the pains that we would feel with loneliness. I have never had a prayer answered before that I didn't know I was asking. When he said the words, Christ will never leave us to be alone, my heart skipped with joy, as I felt I had an answer to an ever pressing ache on my heart I have had for a while. As some of you know we have been trying to have a baby for almost 3 years now. With not really anything medically wrong we ahve just not been able to have a baby. As I struggled for a while with "Why me?", I had to realize that everything happens for a reason, and I put it in God's hands. Lately though I have been silently struggling with the heart ache, when I see everyone being blessed with babies, and being able to start their eternal families. I didn't know it at the time, but I needed those words that Elder Holland said on Sunday. Christ suffered for us, so we would not only be able to repent but so we would never be alone, and he would alwasy be with us through our struggles, and heartaches. How grateful I am for a Heavenly Father who knows me, better than I know myself, and although I do not have my baby yet, I know one day he will bless me with having my eternal family.

Number 6

I was tagged by my friend and neighbor Karen Allen to go to my pictures, go to the 6th file and pick my 6th picture. This is my cute hubby Brian mountain biking up Provo Canyon in November 2007. Him and his friend Miles would go every morning until it started snowing, it was about 20 degrees or colder outside. Hence the thermols with the shorts.

I tag Kricket, Bethany, Johanna, Kacey L., Kris J., and Paige R.

Happy Big 24!

So in January I had my big 24th birthday. I know nothing really exciting about turning 24 except that I am one year away from 25, which means I have almost been here for a quater of a century. I did however have a SPECTACULAR birthday with 3 parties, filled with love, laughs, and of course great company. On my actual birthday though I woke up to this and this

at work I got to look at, and eat these then ate fabulous chinese food with the most handsome man I knowthen later on got to blow out some birthday candles on this scrumptious cake

Thanks everyone for the birthday cheers, and great gifts! But especially to my cute husband who went above and beyond this year to make my birthday extra special.